someone has represented me. they have put their foot down in my place - hit the accelerator on time, place and thought and let it whizz past me.

its ok. things speed up and everything gets more exciting. the lows blur into highs and at the end of the day you tend only to remember the better side of life. problem is it feels like im constantly looking back. constantly reflecting on the day thats been, or the week or month. theres no planning for tomorrow, no anticipation nor hopes/promises. my life used to be a lot more planned. I knew what I wanted to do - i knew when i wanted to see people, get things sorted out - I had time to make time.

i want kids. il have a baby Javier.. and Aimilios.. and Mariza and Ilias. random chain of thought but i really want babies. pronto. get that foot put down harder i guess. ZOOM ZOOM