Its not a lack of caring. its not ignorance. im just tired. my tolerance when im tired doesnt allow for a whole bunch to be allocated to the other side of the world, especially when there is absolutely nothing i can do anyway. If i could stay in this life right here and now for the next year I would. I cant make it sit right with me..it just doesnt..and once again im too tired to try n do anything about it..well actually as i said there isnt anything i can do, except be bitter or dwell. who the fuck cares. I shouldnt care I have everything i need and want right here.  I really need sleep.. n perhaps there are some things i just dont wanna know, or accept.