in the first dnm i had with jonny when i arrived at the school he said to me

"the best bit of advice I can give you is that, no matter what, do not let youself get attached to the kids... because honestly when they leave it will leave you shattered.."

in a way I already knew this.. i mean when i have my favourites at the pool i miss them when i dont get to teach them.. I thought it was just gna be like that.  but its worse.. its so much freaking worse.

I am with these kids 7 days a week, 18hours a day. and its not like im attached to all of them, but there are some (a select few) that I honestly couldnt separate from some of my closest friends. they are some of the funniest and nicest people iv ever met and even though theres the slight laguage barrier you dont notice it...they understand what im saying and i understand them.  A couple of the girls are just 13 and 14... you wouldnt know it to look at them.. but moreso you certainly wouldnt know it to talk to them.

I havent had this much fun ever i dont think... in spain and portugal there were times yes - but it usually took alcohol and a night out to get that buzz.  this job gives me that buzz from the moment i wake up till i go to sleep again. theres rarely a dull moment, from discos to soccer matches to makeup and facepainting, to dancing and singing really badly and ordering pizzas at 2am. its always fun.  99% of that buzz comes from the kids. If you make their life fun - they make yours a dream. And the ones im really close to have literally become the spring in my step. i dont want them to leave.. I have made the mistake of becoming rediculously attached to the kids. I dont regret it. They have taught me so many things. I just dont want them to leave. Perhaps il just break the rules..

i have tears in my eyes just writing this. what a joke. this really is the best gig in the world.